Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I know myself, that i cant hold on much longer.. if 1 day i give up. everything's will be stopped.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Today , didnt go sch again. met kaiwee and hsing at amk hub in the morning. 7+
Then we go nearby master house there slack , den 8+ we go eat at market. than after that very bored la den we go cc awhile, den go 216 slack . LOL. than in the end, decided to go take bus and sleep. so we took bus 88 to pasir ris, on the way we slept like its our bus. LOL. When we reached Pasir Ris, we went toliet liao den take bus back , LOL. than i slept again , i duno wad kaiwee and hsing doing ba. than suddenly i got woken up by some malays, they fking noisy la . pcb ! den make me have headache -.- , den after that went Master house


LOL . play with that collin cbk . den i accidently give him till his mouth . omg la inside and outside bleed. i am so fucking guilty . -.- but awhile nia , cause after that he giv me 1 on the back of my head and 1 on my eye . like combo. LOL. than after that very tired liao la. -.- than leaving that time the cat came. den spoke say HI and awhile say bye. LOL. when leaving collin left his blog post thing unattended, then i go and type rubbish . but i didnt post la . LOL. after that , left and went off ..





Nobody knows the pain i am having.
Nobody understand how i felt.

All you ppl know was backstabbing me say i act emo..

If you are unhappy, i rather u dont come to this blog .

Fuck off bithches.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Didnt go to school today ,

reason 1

Dont feel like going

Reason 2

I am tired

Reason 3

Master they all nt going and its gona be so bored if they dont go.


I dont tink i will be going tmr too =x

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

A Story Of A Boy .

He had a wonderful life till the age of 14
He started with a girl , and he really loves her.
His life starting to fall apart after 6months.
His girl left him
When he is still feeling down for his girl,
Another trouble came, his family is starting to fall apart.
He is always in the middle of his parents.
He doesnt feel good. and hopes to die.
But he got a group of frens that he really treasures.
He is trying to stand up for the sake for his frens.
But within this time, more trouble are coming in,
but he is still struggling to stand up and live again.
I wonder how long can he take this.



I misses her and i really do.



( This is my blog, i write wad i want)


-FORD

Monday, July 21, 2008

Why cant my life be happy . just for one day. it jus wun happen. no matter how good mood i went back after sch. sure got smth that take me out of my mood, everyday the same. everyday sure tio kp. wadever i do also wrong. Cant ppl stand at my point of view? -.- its either already bad mood in sch , or good mood go home den bad mood again.


Am i really a bad person ? if yes , pls tell me straight in the face. dont dislike me secretly. i dont like it.. i prefer ppl telling me how they dislike me straight. at least give people a chance to change..

My life sucks. If death is willing to take me with it. i will be more then willing to go with it.



There's no1 to there when i needed it. cause none of them can und how i felt. telling me to cheer up all this is useless. cause i know i cant do it. people like me might jus as well go to hell .

Will any1 even feel sad if i die?
Will the one i love shed a tears for me if i die?


-FORD

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Today is 20JULY08. Spent my day with CHEN and PING . 3 person had 32 bottle of bacardi. having huge headache now. -.- maybe this is the best way to divert heartache to headache -.-

Friday, July 18, 2008

Sch was nth today =x went master hse after sch. didnt train today. cause i was dam tired la. den watch kaiwee dota awhile den watch master rakion awhile jiu go back le.

A REVIEW OF DUMBDUMB FAMILY !

-XiaoQiang Master

To me , you are a good person . although u always bully me . wahaha. i still tink u are a good person lahs. lols. overall comment - GOOD =) , i und u facing some problems recently. relax. dont tink too much abt it . find smth to occupy yr mind. :) hope u get wad i saying.


-Kaiwee

To me , you are also a good person jus like master :D , u also always bully me ! LOL ! but i still tink u are good . XD nt cause i like to be bullied la x)


-Jiayin Counsellor , Employer

To me , you are also a good person , jus that u always pinch me ! dam pain lahh ! LOL!

-Mouse

Urm.. no comments dont know you till the level to comment yet :) so far so good =)

-Melissa

To me , you are good , cause very good to deesiao :) LOL ! joking xD

-Collin

Nth to say , i dont know you quite well too, lols.

-Weihsing

To me, you are a good person , just that recently your attitude changed. then i tell u abt it u also dontwant to take in . that made people feel dam irritated. den u shoot ppl shoot lose liao den take parents come out and shoot. if some1 lidat to u , wad do you think la rite? so sometime u really made me feel dam irritated la. nt dat i wan bu qi la . its like tell u so many time liao . u still lidat. den sometime tell u liao . u give 1 emo attitude. den i tell u abt somethings u did wrongly. u always have excuse to say u nt in the wrong. pls la if u are not in the wrong, i still tell u for wad. u go tink abt wad i told u recently. if u still tink u no wrong den i bo wei gong liao.


Thats All :)
FOr those not mentioned. its cause i dont know you that well lols.


Sighs. no1 understands my suffering .. i still hope you will be back. but its hopeless.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Sigh . Firstly . Thanks Jiayin the Employer Cum Counsellor for getting my hp back for me :)

Second is a bad thing. Moving around blogs today . Why is every1 so sad .. sighs . To DUMBDUMB family members . Dont feel sad or anything. smile. be as happy as ever .

TO : XiaoQianqq Master :)

Dont feel sad or stress. anything can find any1 of family members and share ma . wads the point of family. if u aint gona share anything rite? dun keep all your unhappiness to yourself. i am sure that any1 in the family is willing to hear u out. i think that at least telling out yr troubles is better than keeping it to yrself. u will feel better. seriously. :) I dont know your problems , and i cant help you. but if you are willingly. i can lend my ears to u :)

Takecares My Master. :)

Dont find me bothersome and naggy :)

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Second time i post today FOR Master :D

I know you treated me like family , i treat u like one too :)
i know what u are trying to tell me . but its nt easy to let go . especially some1 stupid like me, i am nt holding on to a wall that is falling . i am holding to a wall that has already fallen. i know even if patch , she's not happy i also wont be . that time u told me i already thinking. and i am already trying.

Although u always say bad things to me. but i know its for play nia ma . we kids tends to play more than being serious. so sometime i xl with you also play nia. i am lidat de ma . since sec 1 :)

loves dumbdumbfamily :D

Monday, July 14, 2008

My first post WOOHOO.

hi, this is the first time i am having a blog ( bullshit XD)

wahahahs.

finally made a decision in me. hope it isnt wrong.


thats for today :)





Although i very less meet with dumbdumb family :O
I STILL LOVE THEM :)