if you cant get the person you love to love you, seeing him/her will feel better ..

Spent my christmas eve night with DDF :)
merry christmas all !

Slowly drifting away from everything ~

我爱你，也很想你

二零零七二零零七
会永远留在我心理

<3 20072007

My Blog , My Talk !
:)

Happy Birthday To You <3 may all your wishes come truee .


you may be enjoying noww.. but wad about me? :( i cant even do a simple thing.

i give up in everything. and i mean EVERYTHING.



wait for me my friend.

LOVE n FOREVER

can some1 tell me the meaning of this 2 word ?
wads 1314 ?
wads 3344 ?
wads 184　？

wads there left to rely on ?

Family?
Friends?
Online Friends?

FORD IS RETURNING !

FORD IS LEAVING

DUMB AIRPORT. so bloody sian , why isit a rule that ppl mus check in 2 hrs b4 the flight time $%^&*() walan so fucking bored. sian . still got another 8hr flight. nabeis ! ahhhhh !　ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｍａｄ　！　Ｉ　ＨＡＶＥ　ＧＯＴ　ＮＯＴＨＩＮＧ　ＴＯ　ＴＹＰＥ　ＧＯＯＤＢＹＥ　！

i felt that i am nothing , no1 even bother abt me , all jus ignores me , i dunwana go in MSN anymore, I dunwana go in audi anymore , i dunwana see her blog anymore, nt updating, i DUNWANNA ON MY COMP AGAIN ! =( everybody see me msging them , immediatly reply is, either afk , if not jiu shi brb , and none of them ever returned, some even ignroed me , what have i done to deserve all this ? from everybody ,,, damn.

wad am i to all of you ? I AM NOTHING !

i've a feeling that , my friends are drifting away ~
i've a feeling that , my love isnt coming back ~

Sighhs , i dreamt of her yesturday agains , AND WHAT ?
i get rejected by her again. EVEN IN MY DREAM?
wtf is this man ?

why cant jus let me happi in dream ?
dream also nid to reject?

sighhs .


life is stupid .


imissher loads <3

I loves you i really do
i miss you i really do


l0ls .


wad a bad day . as always .
same things are happening to me daily. l0ls.


i am predestined to stand alone..
yup, i can breathe all my troubles to DDF
but, that only made me feel better a few moments .
cause the same old things is gona happen to me .
AGAIN N AGAIN !


i miss [D]umb[D]umb FAMILY !



now i know theres only one thing that last forever. THATS DUMBDUMB FAMILY !

I miss you , i need you , i want you , i love you ,


where are you my love?
what are you doing ?
do you know that some1 is thinking of ya?


no i dont think u knows ,
you are just busy playing and enjoying life .

while i am jus thinking and there's nothing i can do .
why cant i stop thinking?

i'd really loved to contact you ,
but i know you wouldnt want me to do that,
and doing that will cause your unhappiness ,
thats why i didnt do that ,

i've no other place to say out wad am i thinking ,
except in this blog ..

my diary !



LOVEESS YOU loads !
20072007 <3

deep down inside my hart.. i still misses you . you are so .. unforgetable? =x

MY CREATION :DDD






COMMENTS PLS :D
<3 DDF

i know i aint got a friend .. i know i aint a good person . i know that i sucks ! i dont blame ppl ignoring me :) cause i am fking kp kia ! i shouldnt have a mouth . cause wadever i said , ppl take me as bullshit. i aint gona talk to anyone anymore !fark off pls ! soon this blog is gona b private once again =XX



i dont see the need for blogging. CAUSE THERES NO1 TO SEE IT !

wtf is this ?_l_

I know i am such an irritant.
to my friends. to my family. to everybody...


x(




i am really sorry....

let the pictures do the talking.

Kaiwee, You will be missed .

I aint a good friend.
Maybe i am nothing to you.
But i treated u as 1 family.

Seeing you leave today dont makes me feel well,
But no matter what. just hope you will be happy out there.
Rest well, Chiang Kai Wee

I wont forget you forever ~

x33 DDF

CHIANG KAI WEE will be missed




I wasnt a perfect friend...

Hope you Rest well.

Remeber Us like how we will remember u forever ..

DDF LOVES <3

I am very tired.. i am tired of the life of being avoided. i am tired of life with stress and pressure.



i feel that i am starting to becoming some1 i dont know.

TOday is 17o8o8, i spent the first few hours expecting yr msg. the msges i received.. none of it was you . i hoped its you. but you didnt msg. i could felt anything but disapointed. does any1 even rmb its my bday? fine. it doesnt really matter if any1 remembers it. the person i want doesnt. i told you i will be having a birthday party and invited you, its a lie. i aint having any bday party. i was jus reminding u its my bday. even though i know u wunt send me any msg. sighs. i couldnt felt more disapointed than today, last year de today. you were the 1st and only person who sent it. this year. i hoped but it didnt appear

Sighs.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHDE:)


early morning go sch, that fat pig come kp. den awhile fool come kp also. -.- den nothing le lor. eng do test. do do do like idiot. fking hard . keep asking ppl for ans. then recess. eat liao. than tio bday bash. -.- (why mus master think of it at that time. ) then after that boring lesson again . till last period do test again. 12.45 dimiss. then took bus with master to market. wanted to eat but never eat. den went 216. wished ahde happy birthday. after ivan came. den after awhile some1 tapped me from behind. its the cat ! -.- den awhile later went off. thats all. -.-

i miss you, i really do :(

No sch for me today , sighs.. i starting to feel dat everyone dislikes me , maybe its true. maybe its i tink too much. i dont know, and i dont wish to know. if some1 out there really dislikes me. tell me. dont hide it from me thanks




3 days away. will you even msg? i pray that u will.

If you all dislikes me, Why let me follow?

wtf is this man?

Why am i so stupid?
why cant i giv up ?

I just keep failing to do it

I am jus so unimportant in this world. wads the use of me ? i cant tink of smth thats good in me.

O.O another day wasted


Its just another 6days away , i will really be very happy jus to receive a msg from u on my birthday. or even normal days. although its impossible :(

knn . dam stupid today . knn national day . sick at home . -.-


when can i ever fucking go out?


a word from u. can turn everything around.i'd rather cut 10years of my lifespan jus to celebrate each birthday with you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANJIAYIN COUNSELLOR !


Didnt spend today with things. wasted my day -.0






Birthday coming. last birthday was celebrated with you. how i wish this year will be with u too .. sigh..

Woot ~ finally a update for my blog :)
And a new song :)





What i would like to say. I LOVE DDF =)

WIthout them , there wouldnt be me.

Today didnt went sch , i tink tmr also wont go. i am starting to get more and more moodless. i moodless to do anything. i would rather stone in my room.

Why must heaven gives us things, and take it away from us again?
-.-

If god wana torture some1. why not jus take that person life away. its win win situation. get it? if god can really see this. he will know wad to do !

if not its oh god damn it.

will waiting gives me the outcome i want? SOMEONE advise me pls !

I know myself, that i cant hold on much longer.. if 1 day i give up. everything's will be stopped.

Today , didnt go sch again. met kaiwee and hsing at amk hub in the morning. 7+
Then we go nearby master house there slack , den 8+ we go eat at market. than after that very bored la den we go cc awhile, den go 216 slack . LOL. than in the end, decided to go take bus and sleep. so we took bus 88 to pasir ris, on the way we slept like its our bus. LOL. When we reached Pasir Ris, we went toliet liao den take bus back , LOL. than i slept again , i duno wad kaiwee and hsing doing ba. than suddenly i got woken up by some malays, they fking noisy la . pcb ! den make me have headache -.- , den after that went Master house


LOL . play with that collin cbk . den i accidently give him till his mouth . omg la inside and outside bleed. i am so fucking guilty . -.- but awhile nia , cause after that he giv me 1 on the back of my head and 1 on my eye . like combo. LOL. than after that very tired liao la. -.- than leaving that time the cat came. den spoke say HI and awhile say bye. LOL. when leaving collin left his blog post thing unattended, then i go and type rubbish . but i didnt post la . LOL. after that , left and went off ..





Nobody knows the pain i am having.
Nobody understand how i felt.

All you ppl know was backstabbing me say i act emo..

If you are unhappy, i rather u dont come to this blog .

Fuck off bithches.

Didnt go to school today ,

reason 1

Dont feel like going

Reason 2

I am tired

Reason 3

Master they all nt going and its gona be so bored if they dont go.


I dont tink i will be going tmr too =x

A Story Of A Boy .

He had a wonderful life till the age of 14
He started with a girl , and he really loves her.
His life starting to fall apart after 6months.
His girl left him
When he is still feeling down for his girl,
Another trouble came, his family is starting to fall apart.
He is always in the middle of his parents.
He doesnt feel good. and hopes to die.
But he got a group of frens that he really treasures.
He is trying to stand up for the sake for his frens.
But within this time, more trouble are coming in,
but he is still struggling to stand up and live again.
I wonder how long can he take this.



I misses her and i really do.



( This is my blog, i write wad i want)


-FORD

Why cant my life be happy . just for one day. it jus wun happen. no matter how good mood i went back after sch. sure got smth that take me out of my mood, everyday the same. everyday sure tio kp. wadever i do also wrong. Cant ppl stand at my point of view? -.- its either already bad mood in sch , or good mood go home den bad mood again.


Am i really a bad person ? if yes , pls tell me straight in the face. dont dislike me secretly. i dont like it.. i prefer ppl telling me how they dislike me straight. at least give people a chance to change..

My life sucks. If death is willing to take me with it. i will be more then willing to go with it.



There's no1 to there when i needed it. cause none of them can und how i felt. telling me to cheer up all this is useless. cause i know i cant do it. people like me might jus as well go to hell .

Will any1 even feel sad if i die?
Will the one i love shed a tears for me if i die?


-FORD

Today is 20JULY08. Spent my day with CHEN and PING . 3 person had 32 bottle of bacardi. having huge headache now. -.- maybe this is the best way to divert heartache to headache -.-

Sch was nth today =x went master hse after sch. didnt train today. cause i was dam tired la. den watch kaiwee dota awhile den watch master rakion awhile jiu go back le.

A REVIEW OF DUMBDUMB FAMILY !

-XiaoQiang Master

To me , you are a good person . although u always bully me . wahaha. i still tink u are a good person lahs. lols. overall comment - GOOD =) , i und u facing some problems recently. relax. dont tink too much abt it . find smth to occupy yr mind. :) hope u get wad i saying.


-Kaiwee

To me , you are also a good person jus like master :D , u also always bully me ! LOL ! but i still tink u are good . XD nt cause i like to be bullied la x)


-Jiayin Counsellor , Employer

To me , you are also a good person , jus that u always pinch me ! dam pain lahh ! LOL!

-Mouse

Urm.. no comments dont know you till the level to comment yet :) so far so good =)

-Melissa

To me , you are good , cause very good to deesiao :) LOL ! joking xD

-Collin

Nth to say , i dont know you quite well too, lols.

-Weihsing

To me, you are a good person , just that recently your attitude changed. then i tell u abt it u also dontwant to take in . that made people feel dam irritated. den u shoot ppl shoot lose liao den take parents come out and shoot. if some1 lidat to u , wad do you think la rite? so sometime u really made me feel dam irritated la. nt dat i wan bu qi la . its like tell u so many time liao . u still lidat. den sometime tell u liao . u give 1 emo attitude. den i tell u abt somethings u did wrongly. u always have excuse to say u nt in the wrong. pls la if u are not in the wrong, i still tell u for wad. u go tink abt wad i told u recently. if u still tink u no wrong den i bo wei gong liao.


Thats All :)
FOr those not mentioned. its cause i dont know you that well lols.


Sighs. no1 understands my suffering .. i still hope you will be back. but its hopeless.

Sigh . Firstly . Thanks Jiayin the Employer Cum Counsellor for getting my hp back for me :)

Second is a bad thing. Moving around blogs today . Why is every1 so sad .. sighs . To DUMBDUMB family members . Dont feel sad or anything. smile. be as happy as ever .

TO : XiaoQianqq Master :)

Dont feel sad or stress. anything can find any1 of family members and share ma . wads the point of family. if u aint gona share anything rite? dun keep all your unhappiness to yourself. i am sure that any1 in the family is willing to hear u out. i think that at least telling out yr troubles is better than keeping it to yrself. u will feel better. seriously. :) I dont know your problems , and i cant help you. but if you are willingly. i can lend my ears to u :)

Takecares My Master. :)

Dont find me bothersome and naggy :)

Second time i post today FOR Master :D

I know you treated me like family , i treat u like one too :)
i know what u are trying to tell me . but its nt easy to let go . especially some1 stupid like me, i am nt holding on to a wall that is falling . i am holding to a wall that has already fallen. i know even if patch , she's not happy i also wont be . that time u told me i already thinking. and i am already trying.

Although u always say bad things to me. but i know its for play nia ma . we kids tends to play more than being serious. so sometime i xl with you also play nia. i am lidat de ma . since sec 1 :)

loves dumbdumbfamily :D

My first post WOOHOO.

hi, this is the first time i am having a blog ( bullshit XD)

wahahahs.

finally made a decision in me. hope it isnt wrong.


thats for today :)





Although i very less meet with dumbdumb family :O
I STILL LOVE THEM :)