I am very tired.. i am tired of the life of being avoided. i am tired of life with stress and pressure.



i feel that i am starting to becoming some1 i dont know.

TOday is 17o8o8, i spent the first few hours expecting yr msg. the msges i received.. none of it was you . i hoped its you. but you didnt msg. i could felt anything but disapointed. does any1 even rmb its my bday? fine. it doesnt really matter if any1 remembers it. the person i want doesnt. i told you i will be having a birthday party and invited you, its a lie. i aint having any bday party. i was jus reminding u its my bday. even though i know u wunt send me any msg. sighs. i couldnt felt more disapointed than today, last year de today. you were the 1st and only person who sent it. this year. i hoped but it didnt appear

Sighs.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHDE:)


early morning go sch, that fat pig come kp. den awhile fool come kp also. -.- den nothing le lor. eng do test. do do do like idiot. fking hard . keep asking ppl for ans. then recess. eat liao. than tio bday bash. -.- (why mus master think of it at that time. ) then after that boring lesson again . till last period do test again. 12.45 dimiss. then took bus with master to market. wanted to eat but never eat. den went 216. wished ahde happy birthday. after ivan came. den after awhile some1 tapped me from behind. its the cat ! -.- den awhile later went off. thats all. -.-

i miss you, i really do :(

No sch for me today , sighs.. i starting to feel dat everyone dislikes me , maybe its true. maybe its i tink too much. i dont know, and i dont wish to know. if some1 out there really dislikes me. tell me. dont hide it from me thanks




3 days away. will you even msg? i pray that u will.

If you all dislikes me, Why let me follow?

wtf is this man?

Why am i so stupid?
why cant i giv up ?

I just keep failing to do it

I am jus so unimportant in this world. wads the use of me ? i cant tink of smth thats good in me.

O.O another day wasted


Its just another 6days away , i will really be very happy jus to receive a msg from u on my birthday. or even normal days. although its impossible :(

knn . dam stupid today . knn national day . sick at home . -.-


when can i ever fucking go out?


a word from u. can turn everything around.i'd rather cut 10years of my lifespan jus to celebrate each birthday with you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANJIAYIN COUNSELLOR !


Didnt spend today with things. wasted my day -.0






Birthday coming. last birthday was celebrated with you. how i wish this year will be with u too .. sigh..

Woot ~ finally a update for my blog :)
And a new song :)





What i would like to say. I LOVE DDF =)

WIthout them , there wouldnt be me.

Today didnt went sch , i tink tmr also wont go. i am starting to get more and more moodless. i moodless to do anything. i would rather stone in my room.

Why must heaven gives us things, and take it away from us again?
-.-

If god wana torture some1. why not jus take that person life away. its win win situation. get it? if god can really see this. he will know wad to do !

if not its oh god damn it.

will waiting gives me the outcome i want? SOMEONE advise me pls !